If.

If I go, if I go closer to you
I wonder what you may think, I can’t drum up the courage

If you go, if you go away from me
It is scary to figure out how to let you go

Perhaps, the reason I only look at you, like a fool,
is for fear that you may turn your face away, and
you and I may drift further apart

Even though i know looking is all i can do
Your heart may look away from me
And so we could even become strangers

I know, i'm like a fool

All i could think of is you.

It's 12am now and i'll be going off tomorrow to Bali. (:

I'm gonna have a blast there. HEH.

Toodies! :)

I saw someone who look literally like you

And i began to wonder if my eyes were playing tricks on me. 

Hopefully, i suppose.

Happy Birthday to me!

 

Yay!

After waiting for many months, it's finally my birthday!

WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE ~

Woke up this morning and head to Thomson Plaza for Tim Sum. When we first step into the restaurant, whoa. We're their 1st customer and it was so quiet. O_O.

But it wasn't a Tim Sum buffet! :( Big Cussie say that buffets are only for saturdays. Hmphhhhhh.

So we ordered many many Tim Sums like ha gao, siew mai, chi qiong fan, cha siew and nian yong pao etc etc.

Ohmaaaaaaaaaaaan, so heavenly.

*Drools*

Went over to Far East after that with 2 cussies and fatpig.

Bought my birthday bag (2nd last pic) @ a cheap price! I shall not reveal the price but it's like 50% off.

Heh, thankyou small cussie! :D

Okay, i'm super tired nao and it's like almost 12 and and i'm going to work tomorrow AND i'm meeting Jac tomorrow! Awesome nugget :B

Pictures are uploaded according to the arrival of my pressies : 

The first was actually a advance birthday pressie from Gwen, 4th pic was also from her and the 5th pic was the overall pressies from her! Thankyou dear! :)
And a big awesome lovely Thankyou to everyone who wished me! 

I was waiting for it yet it didn't come. I guess you forgot about it.

I'm happy w/o you

And I hope the sun shines
And it's a beautiful day
And something reminds you
You wish you had stayed
You can plan for a change in weather and town
But I never planned on you changing your mind

A big big extremely huge Thank you to Fathin, Chen, Jocelyn, Perlin, Jasmine, Spencer & Yp for celebrating my early birthday! :) 

My first birthday pressie was from Jasmine & Perlin; a super cute mouse wallet! Yay!! Thankyouuuu girls! ^^

Second pressie was from Chen, Fathin & Spencer;  a small pouch and a super chio flower bangle! Thankyou!

Photos will be uploaded asap! 

Hohoho, i'm so busy this week, FOR ONCE! 

Walls of insincerity

If you ever knew how i felt, i would be more than satisfied. 

But you didn't seem to care, or it is just me? 

I hate how the world seems so big and true enough, still as big as ever. 

Silly me, why would i be thinking about this right now? 

I've yet to thank people around me for making me, like me. 

You see, i'm not expressive with my words. Neither do i know how to speak perfectly. 

Sometimes, i went overboard w/o knowing it.

And frankly speaking, it's kinda of difficult for me to say (I'm sorry) 

There are still, many things that i've done yet, people around me doesn't seem to take it seriously. 

Pardon me if i've done something that makes you displeased.

But i'm really thankful to them for tolerating me up to now. 

Like how the saying goes, 'Nobody is perfect; everyone has their own flaws and weakness.'

Once again,

Thankyou, beautiful you. :)

(P.s Imma loving Enchanted by Taylor Swift) 

I'm not okay, i'm far worst. 

I wish you were right here beside me. 

But thn again.... 

Oh.. well.. i don't give a 'sheesh' about it. I think.

Uh.. Period. much.

Dear John

Well maybe it's me
And my blind optimism to blame
Maybe its you and your sick need
To give love then take it away
And you'll add my name
To your long list of traitors
Who don't understand
And I'll look back in regret
How I ignored when they said
Run as fast as you can


You are an expert at sorry
And keeping lines blurry
And never impressed by me
Acing your tests
All the girls that you run dry
Have tired lifeless eyes
Cuz you burned them out
But I took your matches
Before fire could catch me
So don't look now
I'm shining like fireworks
Over your sad empty town

Oh woah oh.

Out of everyone, why you?

Rotted like a donkey @ home since Meichen needs to go back to dance and Jocelyn, who went to see a doctor. Granny, daddy and fatpig went out which left me waking up @ 1230pm. It was more tiring waking up even though i slept for like 11hours straight. Gwad, I feel like a rotten banana.

Cussie went over to our house for dinner since there are still leftovers from yesterday's celebration. And we went G-market shopping. HAHA. She bought a top for herself and a top for me & fatpig! 

Yayness! :D 

Hahaha, thanks cussie! -inset many many hearts!- 

So now, i'm waiting for the delivery of my clothes. MAU-HAHAHA. :)

Don't always take things for granted or rather, don't wait till it's too late, to realise what a fool you've been all these time. 

I don't like it when people raises your hopes high and thn piang! down it goes. 

my wishful thinking

Domo kun!

Isn't Domo kun such a cutie? :) 

My aunt bought it for me and pig. oh! And i've got a super heavy bear necklace too. hehe, but it's kinda hard to wear it though. The chain doesn't really work out. 

But ohwell, thanks aunty! :D Hehehe.

Outing with Meichen was canceled since she need to go to her cussie's house. 

Boohoo, which left me rotting @ home like a pig, consider that i woke up @ 11 plus 12. 

And i think i wanna get shades too. Yay! When i get my pay ...... 

Ohohohohohoh! And imma gna go HongKong during dec instead of Taiwan. Dad's not going with us though, since we've been there last time. Instead we're going with aunt. Shop + eat  = shiok! :) 

But we're going there for like 4days only. :( 

S'okay, at least we get to go overseas. Dad says the plan of going overseas will be postpone to next year march. Prolly going to either korea or taiwan, i think. 

Scrolling down G market now. tata!

So empty, so empty w/o you.

Time pass so slow today and i fell asleep while folding invoices. *yawn* 

And i accidentally hit Meichen's nose while putting up those thick files. Sorry chen! HAHA. x: 

Her expression was so funny that i laugh so hard. Bth xD 

Too tired to continue writing or rather, i'm just too lazy. Gonna go out with chen tomorrow, yay! :D

As the night kicks in, i'm thinking of you. 
And that makes me wonder if all these were true. 

Beautiful my girl.

I have no idea what's gna happen from now on, but i'll still keep believing for a miracle. :)


Went out to Bugis this afternoon with Jocelyn since Gwen wanted us to visit her. And i bought Yami Yogurt from her.
*Phew* Thank goodness. She gave me like x2 more of what the manager gave.
Walk around Bugis street and found this super GORGEOUS yellow colour shorts. Didn't buy it since i wasn't in desperate need of shorts. Boohoo, but i'm regretting it now. Oh my cow. :/ 
Jocelyn bought a blue coloured stripes bag with my help. Hehehe, imma such a nice girl. :)
Went home after spending like 3hours there.
Gosh. i'm still so upset that i couldn't get SOMETHING that i really liked.
Once i get all my pay, imma gna spent like what i think the rest will do.
SHOPPING SPREEEEEEEEE. 

I seriously love Junhyung's rap. *faints* 

Oh. And if you're wondering what song did i put up on my blog, it's Jessie James - I look so good :)

Strange

Happy Birthday to Weipin, Angeline and Ryan! :) 

I'm so upset these few days. Prolly cause i didn't get any chance to go shopping. 

Bwah.

Working tomorrow and i really don't feel like going. Who likes it anyway.

So tired. of everything. 

*sigh* 

Maybe i'll just go to sleep and let natural takes its course. Oh. I found out that my left eye is so much smaller thn my rights. How hilarious. Hmph.

Not funny. :/ 

Faith

Don't give up just because of a tiny setback, stand back up & move on.

Have faith in Him.

Nothing's impossible to Him :)

(It's STORY TIMEEEEEEEE)

Board the train with my dearest sister and headed to service. Along the way, many ungram/disgusting/irritating situations happened. 
Hehehehe. (p.s typical singaporean like me only knows how to complain. opps!) 

1) Irritating ttm. -_-

 Sat down, share my nano with sis and thought that i could rest awhile. Hohoho, i was sooo wrong. 

The little girl opp me was talking so loudly to her family la. It was more like screaming, believe me. Apparently, she wanted to play this particular game on the gameboy but her little brother didn't want her to play. Complain + talking + complain to her parents.

Omg laaa, she talk as if she's in her world. Yesyes, she's just a little girl. BUT her parents were with her and they didn't do anything. >:( Peeps who were sitting in the same cabin got very irritated (like me) 

Thank goodness she got off @ like 6 stops after we board. *phew*

2) Disgusting.

(i advised you not to eat while looking at this section) 

After the little girl got off, it still wasn't time for me to sleep. No no, not yet. 

I closed my eyes and the next moment..

someone farted. -.-

The person who fart haven been going to the toilet for quite some time i guess. The smell was indescribable (in a bad way.. duh!) 

Piang. Really bad. It didn't happen only once, it happened like thrice? Oh-my-cow. 

Sis was very pissed cause she can't concentrate with the smell. So she started to fan herself with her notes and asked me ' wah, who's the one that farted? so smelly!' HAHAHAHAHAHA. She said that quite loudly though. 

We aren't the only peeps affected. Everyone was. 

In case this incident happened next time, mrt should provide oxygen masks in case someone faints. :/

3) Lastly.. Ungram (unglam) 

When the smell was gone, IT STILL WASN'T TIME FOR ME TO REST.

A couple sat opposite me and the girl was wearing a very short shorts and high heels. 

And thn she open her legs wide. Super wide. 

HELLO?! I'M IN FRONT OF YOU, NO NEED TO SHOW ME. S'OKAY.

Plus, her heels are very high, so her legs would definitely look longer and well.. you know what i mean. -_-

Her bf didn't do anything. nothing at all. Just look out the window.

Thank goodness she took out her sunglasses and went to sleep. 

EVERYONE was looking @ her. Yep, everyone. See, i'm not a pervert okay. 

I closed my eyes, started to go into my lalalalala land and "Next stop, jurong east station. Passengers who are going towards changi aiport, please proceed to the left. Passengers who are going towards jookoon, please proceed to your right." 

Which means, i didn't get any rest at all. -.- Since that ungram girl went in @ bukit something which is 2 stops away from Jurong east. 

Anyway, service was great! Fellowship at long john with cell and HAHAHHAHAA. Wenjie was hilarious. Me, Sis, Vincent, Sam & Kenneth laugh so badly not at the story he's telling, but at him. 

I feel so bad, but it's really very funny! HEHE. xD

Okeeeeeeh, i'm gna watch my animes nao! tootoo! ^^

O_O

Work was kinda tiring this week. Duh. 

But thurs and fri was so slack since our head was on leave. HEHEHE. but poor Jocelyn & Fathin. Tsk tsk. 

But it's kinda fun working there since the peeps are super friendly + funny. 

Met up with Ches and Eddy after work on friday and headed to uhm, some jap. restaurant for dinner. Piangxz, never want to eat there again. The food tasted so suckish (eeeew much) 

I MISSED SNSD, SHINEE, ZE:A ETC BY MINUTES LA. :( 

They went to one of the Korean Restaurant @ one of the top levels to have dinner. I feel like slapping myself and dig a hole for me to go in.

I WAS THERE, BUT I COULDN'T SEE MY PRECIOUS YURI & JONGHYUN?! 

*cries* 

Went to get a cup of hot chocolate with them, started talking & taking random pictures. haha! 

Ches started wearing my specs and i wore his. Jocelyn took out her specs and eddy doesn't wanna wear any specs. Spent almost 45mins there and whack! it was really enjoyable.

Sitting down, have a nice warm cup of hot chocolate and chatting with peeps you knew for quite some time is absolutely refreshing. 

Thanks for everything guys! hehe x) 

Same old day.

When things gets difficult, look on the bright side. 

Tiring but worth it, isn't it? 

Hehehehe, that's what i thought too! x) 

Work is definitely tiring duh. but there's pay! $$$$ Not that I'm a money face, but i can buy lota things with my pay. And i need to get things for fatpig, daddy and granny. 

Fatpig bought the whole twilight saga for me (she's so good.. *cough*) when she worked last year. Her pay is sooooooooooo gorgeous that it hurts my eyes. Sadly, i can't work for her boss. :/ 

I'm gna meet Sharon Aunty for lunch tomorrow! 

YIPEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! 

I didn't know that she and GuMa worked just opp. the place where I'm working. 

So coincidental! ^^ 

Okay, imma go sleep tomorrow. Super tired. :/ 

BAHHHHHH. 

I'm so tired nao. My back hurts like crazy. :/

Waking up @ 7 tomorrow. 

Oh.my.cow. :/ 

(P.S i hope tomorrow will be a smooth day)

Travel around singapore.

Decided to go Novena with Fathin to job hunt and we ended up well.. lost traveling around Singapore. 

First, we took Bus 852, thinking that it would stop by Novena. UH-HUH. 

So wrong. 

We ended up @ Bukit Timah third avenue. We were soooo LOST traveling around Singapore.

After that, we went to the opp. bus stop to check if any bus would pass by Novena. 

Apparently, none. 

But there's a bus that would pass by Macritchie Reservoir, so we decided to take that bus since there are buses from Marcitchie Reservoir that would pass by Novena.
 Board the bus, and i saw many trees and my itchy hands went to press the bell.
And we alighted.
And.. OMGOGMMGOMGOGOMG, WTCOW ARE WE?!


Exactly.
We both stare at each other like cows. (moooooooo)
I laughed like crap. Seriously.
Isn't it funny how we were traveling around Singapore and ended up getting to some weird places we've never been to.
Yep, that's traveling.
I think. (Right?) HAHA.
Okay, back to the story...


Since there's pathway up ahead and the bus is heading front, we decided to walk to Marcitchie Reservoir.
Walk; talk; walk; talk and we stopped.
Why?  Hmm....
CAUSE THERE'S NO BLOODY PATHS UP AHEAD. IT'S EXPRESSWAY, GOSH.
Yep, that's why.
Damn paiseh ttm la.
But i couldn't help laughing once more. REALLY. It's too funny.
Fathin was getting very pissed off. very very pissed.
But thn, there's nothing we could do. So .... just turn back lah? Both of us were saying that it was super ps, and people must be wondering what are we doing there. like what? HAHA.
Plus, we were thinking of walking on the expressway. So cool right? I bet that we would be feature on STOMP! and get famous there. x)


Back to the bus-stop. Found out that there's 6 more stops till we reach Marcitchie. -.- Uh-huh. Almost all buses reaches there so we took Bus 74. Fathin counted 6 stops and we alighted. (p.s it was a very tense moment) *wink*
Cross the bridge to the opp bus-stop to find buses besides 162. And than, Edward cow called. HE LAUGHED @ US AND HANGED UP ON ME. -.- But he call back la. Telling us to take the bus bla bla bla. I couldn't hear what he was talking about, literally. but i just yeah yeah yeah. Hehehe. x:
Fathin say I couldn't hear cause the 'forest' no reception. (Marcitchie has lots of trees)
Anyway, yea. Saw that there's like 6 stops to reach Novena. So we decided to walk there (again) thinking it would be a short journey.
My FOOT hurts like cow. We went to the 1st bus stop, bth already so we took bus.


So we spent like 1.5hours trying to get to Novena when it'll take less thn 45mins to reach there. How 'fun' is it to explore around singapore. -.-


 Long post, back ache, ugh.
Yes Edward cow, i posted this already okay. Don't complain -_-.
And to Fathin moo, I WILL NEVER EVER SIT BUS 852. <---- DISASTER.
HEHE. Finding part-time jobs is tiring. So true. Ryan pig predicts that i won't be able to find one, HMPH. I'll show you i will!
And thanks to Edward cow for making me so ps today.
I WANNA JOIN CHEN AND JOCELYN AND SPENCER RIGHT NOW. :( 
(Edited: I think i lost some weight walking so much) *wink*

Get over & done with

PAPERS.ARE.OVER. 

DO YOU SEE IT? IT'S OVERRRRRRRRRRR! :D

MUAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAAHAHAHAHAHA. 

Okay, i think i'm nuts. but still HEHEHEHE. 

No school till next year, how amazing righttttt. And i think i'm finding a part-time job since my granny + sis keep nagging @ me to find one. So bad right, they don't wanna see me at home :( 

Oh, not to mention, i just woke up. 12hours straight. *wink*

The weather's killing me.

Hot + sunny + humid + never-ending HOT.

And when it rains,

Cold + alittle cold & thn it becomes HOT all the way. So i rather it rains everyday. x)

Hahaha, that's my fatpig's drawing. So sweet. 

It's once in a lifetime that she's so good. HAHA. 

Usually she always nag, scold and cheat my money. -_-. 

Yea, cheat my money. 

I always buy her Mac like 3 weeks once or every week once thn she only buy me BAO (bun) every saturday.

HMPH. :< 

And she'll say 'i love you mei mei' B.L.A. 

Always the same line, but puh-lease. I'm her only sister that's why. But still, she's a good sister besides the fact that she scold me in her sleep and kick that tissue box down which HIT my eyes while she's sleep talking. :(

That's why my eyes are so small. thanks to her la. HAHA. 

Okay, i'm off like uhm. going out to uh. i forgot. HEHEHE, tootoo (my term for byebye) x)